A space to grow.


"Sometimes people are beautiful. Not in looks. Not in what they say. Just in what they are."
-Markus Zusak (I Am the Messenger)

Incomparable to any other friend I have had. I think I might cry the next time I see you.

It has been too long since I've last blogged. Less than a week but I felt weird not being on here. A lot has happened in these past couple of weeks.

There have been some incredibly difficult days, but that is perfectly fine. It is days like those that make me appreciate all of the incredible people and experiences in my life so much more.

The good and the bad balance each other out. The negative experiences force us to remove the cover from our eyes to see all the good right in front of us.
Sometimes we spend so much time searching for something to be happy about that we are blinded from the things that have always been there. Be grateful, always.

"So may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
Sons are like birds, flying upward over the mountain"


Forgiveness is such a powerful thing. But we are all so fixated on revenge and our anger that we push the thought of it way out of our minds. Our pride often gets the best of us and thats the sad reality.

Forgive those who don't deserve it, forgive those who do. Your life will be infinitely better.

Summer is right around the corner. It will be the most incredible thing to just relax and spend time with all of my closest friends.

"You just want to get you sexual needs fulfilled, don't you? "
"Sometimes I pretend my left hand is another person..."

Matthew 7:3
Matthew 7:3

read this and then judge me..

"Why do you notice the small piece of dust that is in your brother's eye, but you don't notice the big piece of wood that is in your own eye? Why do you say to your brother, 'Let me take that little piece of dust out of your eye'? Look at yourself first! You still have that big piece of wood in your own eye." You are a hypocrite. First, take the wood out of your own eye. Then you will see clearly to take the dust out of your brother's eye."

No amount of ugly words can diminish what I have achieved, and the happiness I feel. It cannot be taken from me, because I will not allow it to be.
You create how you feel and how you behave.
You created it only you can destroy it.

"You can look all over but you will never find..
hot shit like mine, it will blow your mind"

"Its not the hand you're dealt, its how you play your cards"
Such a small statement contains so much truth. The 'hand you're dealt' can translate into so many different things, good or bad. It can be people belittling you, underestimating you, judging you. It can be people loving you, and admiring you, it can quite literally be anything. But it does sum it all up quite nicely it is how you PLAY your cards.
You can have a thousand voices in your ear whispering words of hate and failure. But as long as the only voice you listen to is your own..and you push on and make the best of what you have, you will overcome. You will overcome any obstacle that is placed in your way, you will prove everyone who judged you wrong. That is what makes everything worth while, the satisfaction that you bring yourself ... the type of satisfaction that only you can create.

Remember this. Persevere. Overcome.

"Open up your heart and you will understand me"

I am surrounded by so many people around me that aren't spiritual in any way, which is truly a 180º difference from myself. I was asked the other day "Doesn't that bother you? to have friends that think your beliefs are useless?"

This question wasn't as hard for me to answer as I thought it would be, because I am actually so thankful for these people. Not because they have different beliefs then mine, but because in a way..we are the same. Strongly connected to something we believe in so passionately. Whether it is believing in the existence of God, or the exact opposite of that. I would rather have friends that stick to their beliefs(or disbeliefs) then ones who are on the fence with it all the time.

Anyways, this post is basically dedicated to thankfulness.
I am thankful for all of my friends, the ones I see everyday, and the ones I see every couple of years, if I have ever called you a friend, I love you.
I am thankful for my school and everybody in it, because they have inspired me to be better.
Mostly I'm thankful for my family, because there is nothing better then unconditional love.

I am damaged, and imperfect and I am human. Since I am damaged, I am dangerous,
because I know that I can survive.

Struggling and suffering is inevitable, it is what makes us human. How we deal with these things is what makes us who we are. Who do you want to be?
Being an optimist is quite possibly my greatest blessing.

Unfourtunately we are surrounded by people, some who may even be friends, that possess a 'greater than thou' attitude. Now whether these people act like this because they actually believe it, or they are trying to cover up their insecurities is beyond me, but it does not make this any less irritating.

These people are the hardest to love and the hardest to tolerate, but I truthfully believe they need our love the most. Even if its fucking tough, we can bring positive change. (hopefully)

I am so fucking inspired. To do anything. I want to have a good time, good friends and a good heart. Everything seems so obtainable, this is a great place to be.

We are endlessly consumed with the wrong type of things. We need to feel more. I don't want to feel numb. I want to feel every fucking thing around me. Be it sadness, anger, happiness,rage, love. Whatever, I want to feel it. Because that is what makes us human, and that is what allows us to grow. You are your biggest enemy, your own negativity is what holds you back. So stop over analyzing every stupid thing around you and start living. Start feeling something.

I think we came as romans is the only band I can listen to consistently and not get sick of. Plus I want their lyrics tattoo'd on me. Best.

I have so many dreams. It is truly senseless for anybody to try and talk me out of something I have my heart set on. Your insecurities will not hold me back. I am comfortable with everything that I am, and everything I aspire to become. Live to love. Live to dream. Push the fuck on, through everything. Our trials and tribulations are what give us our strength, believe that.

I'm painting. Painting,blazing, inspired. Fuck it.

"I learn to follow my instinct, blinded by the light rather that than the evil"

Never give up on what you believe in. You are only as strong as you allow yourself to be, there are no limits except the ones that you make for yourself. Persevere and you will succeed, you are a beautiful person, and you can accomplish anything. Fuck the critics, listen to your gut and follow your heart.

Every single human being has potential. A destiny. But at the end of everything, we make our own fate, we either live up to our potential, or we don't. Constantly settling for less then we deserve with no logical reasoning behind it. Why settle? Is it fear or is it self doubt? We give too much of a fuck about things that are not worth the time. Who you become is in your hands, think about it.

Recognize your worth. Never settle.

"i strive to speak what i have learned and learn from those i see.
to step out of this life is my ambition.

Could not have said it better myself..

I find myself to be more and more motivated each and everyday. It is beyond exciting, I am ready for whatever comes my way. On a side note, no sleep. I can't remember what it feels like not to be tired.

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